Someone's In My Bed...

... It's been a few months. And, I've gone through so many different phases... still going through, to be honest.

I've finally gotten to the point to where I just don't want to be here anymore. Like, I'm soooooo ready to leave Japan it's not a joke. There's absolutely no bullshitting. I am ready to go.

But...

She's here... in my bed... sleeping... under my covers... and when she awakes... she will watch me... smile at me... and beg me to come to her.

She likes me. And I like her too.

She's sweet, kind, genki! (Japanese for excited, happy, fine, etc.) And she's so into me... I know this because she's told me so. But what surprised me was when I found out we are girlfriends. Yes. Apparently, I've entered into a relationship I didn't know I was in. She was on the phone one day with a friend whom had called her and she said, in Japanese,” “I’m busy with my girlfriend, I have to go. Goodbye.” Totally surprised me and after we talked about it and let more time pass, we talked more and I finally accepted it.

And now she's in my bed.

Dreaming about what only God knows, desiring what only God knows, wanting what only God knows. Because I don't. Our relationship is so new... moved super duper fast, I mean, quite the opposite of slow... that's just how fast it moved. But, after the time we've even spent together, some would say the end justifies the beginning... I do. :)

But the irony is oooohhhhh so clear... I finally have someone who wants to be with me and I want to be with also, but this location is no longer desirable for me. My plan is to seriously be out by November. I have no idea where we will be then. But in these three months since the beginning of the year my savings has only collected a few sprinkles... right now I'm praying hard that I will be out.

But alas... I don't want to leave her... yet in between now and then is quite sometime... let's see what happens. Although it is nice that she's here. I like her in my bed. I'm equally pleased that she likes me in hers as well.

Peace.