I Think I've Been Caught ...

This chick that I had a *thing* for wrote a blog about an admirer of hers. I strongly believe it's in reference to me, but I've moved on right!?! And within my own mind I've acknowledged this for quite sometime. But, I think this chick has found me out. (Laughing) I read her blog, because honestly, I like to read things my people write. And if I know about it, like my friends blogs or articles, I read them. So, I actually found out about her blog on one of those college networking sites. So, I took the time to stop by.

Sometimes we hang out. And, so through this networking site, I sent her a message and asked her if she wanted to go hang out one night. She said she already had plans. I didn't have a problem with that, but when I go to her blog to see what she's written for the day I see a new post about her *knowing* about *some chick* liking her.

It really took me aback, because I'm hoping to God that she's not referring to me, but somehow deep down inside, I believe she is. But, throughout the course of her commentary, the writing seemed to get more bitter. She says she doesn't think her admirer gets the signals of her pretty much being "strictly dickly." If it's in reference to me, I get them. But, who I am, I am not going to change. I didn't even know I was making her feel like I may like her. Because, (at least in my mind) I treat her like I do all my friends.

Anyways, Wow! I really am completely in awe right now. I have been floored. Almost angry in her response (to whomever this person may be- -possibly me), but alas, almost doesn't count. And I'm not upset because of her not being interested. I picked that up a loooonnngggg time ago. I'm upset because of the brief acrimony I picked up in the note. However, for the most part I laughed. And I had a few brief stints of nervous chuckles, as if I'd been placed under bright spot lights with all eyes on me.

But whatever the case, as I've said before, I am moving on. I have moved on. The quest is still on. A new search has begun. The journey continues.

I'm out.

(Posted by IdentityQuest at 2:06 PM- - Friday, May 18, 2007)